Ok, I have a confession to make. This is embarrassing and difficult to admit. I have been putting off taking my in-car lessons with Young Drivers.
Yeah, I’m done my in class lessons. I’m ready to move on to the next stage, and anyone who’s ever seen me attempt to play Grand Theft Auto should be running in fear right about now….
I know playing a video game where you drive a car isn’t the same as getting behind the wheel of a real vehicle, but I find knowing how badly I suck at every driving game I’ve ever tried rather disheartening when I consider doing the real thing. Insert terrifying for disheartening and we’re closer to the truth.
I keep reminding myself of WHY I’m doing this. I want to be able to drive my kids places. I want to be able to just hop in the car and pick up groceries. I want to be able to help out my Dad and my mother-in-law, both of whom can no longer drive. I want to be able to drive my dad to doctors appointments. I want to be able to take my mother-in-law out shopping. And I’m excited that I’m on the road to freedom, but I’m also scared.
You guys know I’ve had some medical issues over the past few months. The idea of having a bad
dizzy or fainting spell while driving scares the pants off of me, so I kept putting off my in-car lessons
hoping they’d find something wrong with me and be able to “fix” it. Waiting until I had a diagnosis with that was going on with my bod seemed like a good idea. The answer ended up being not quite as simple as I would have liked but I have to admit that just knowing it’s nothing serious, and not worrying about it so much, I have been feeling much better these past few weeks.
Yet, I’m still nervous as heck about learning to drive. I find myself sitting in our van watching my husband drive and just trying to think like a driver, rather then a passenger, and feeling really overwhelmed. There are so many things you are supposed to be keeping track of. I try practising some of the “looking” techniques we talked about in class, where I’m supposed to be looking, what I’m supposed to be watching out for, and it feels like… like trying to rub your tummy and pat your head at the same time. It’s too much for me to process. If I feel like that as a passenger what is going to happen when I get behind the wheel?
So I’m anxious, I’m nervous, and I’ve been procrastinating. I have my drivers license in hand, but I’ve yet to sit behind the wheel. There is no way in heck I am going to go out and try this for the first time with my husband, I want a few lessons with a professional under my belt before I try practising on my own.I was happy to find this video clip on “how to overcome your driving anxiety”, which backs up my gut feeling that starting out with a professional is the way to go.
However, this brings me to my next confession, I am thirty-seven years old and I don’t even know how to turn a car on. I don’t know where my feet go. I don’t know which one is the break and which one is the gas. I know nothing about driving a car. Absolutely nothing. I worry a bit about looking like a complete fool in front of the instructor.I found reading this post from the Young Drivers blog on Challenging Your Driving Fears somewhat comforting. When I read about all the various techniques the Young Drivers instructors use to help put their students at ease I couldn’t help but feel a little better. These guys are trained professionals, and they’ve probably seen it all before. I also get the idea that there are people out there that are even more afraid to learn to drive then I am, and ridiculously enough that somehow helps.
So next up, calling to book my first in-car lesson. Gulp. Wish me luck folks.