There is something is my life I NEED every day.
When I can’t get it I immediately go into withdrawals.
When I can’t have it I am irritable, distressed and irrational.
When I am cut off I become nervous, depressed, and antsy.
In short, I have an addiction– to the internet.
We’ve been having problems with our internet connection. Unfortunately rather then clearing up on it’s own, as I’ve been so fervently wishing, the problem appears to be growing worse. This morning it took me over three hours to check my email. Now granted, I didn’t sit for three hours straight trying to get online, but I did spend a good chunk of time on it over a three hour window. Time spent doing the same actions over and over and becoming increasingly edgy and nervous.
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” ~ Albert Einstein
My internet usages currently looks something like this: Reset the router. Unplug the router, count to 20, plug it back in. Unplug the modem, count to 20, plug it back in. Click on connect and tell it to dial my internet service provider. Click – Load one webpage. Notice I am now disconnected. Rinse and repeat. Trying to download email it often hangs up halfway through. Trying to upload images is a hair pulling event that takes multiple attempts. Yeah, it’s driving me nuts. I can’t take it any more. I am going to have to give in and call Bell and have them come out and take a look at the phone lines. Ugh.
Having my connection cut off though… it makes me notice that I truly am an internet addict. It is a little scary how restless and upset I find myself becoming when I can’t get online. Not just so I can blog, or check my email… but so I can check my bank balance, and look at grocery fliers, and other mundane tasks. My life is online and I feel lost without it. What about you?