"She's being difficult. Don't let her go until she signs". Those were the words the obstetrician said as he walked out the door. The nurse nodded, glanced in the room and then shut the door on me. I stood there feeling furious and helpless and trying hard not to cry. I was late into my third trimester and my biweekly meeting with the OB had quickly gone south when he started … [Read more...]
C-Section Fears and Motherhood Scars
My mom had all three of her children by c-section. The sight of the dark scar running vertically down her belly used to fill me with disgust and dread. I had this irrational fear of having a c-section myself. I can't really explain it. That's the thing about irrational fears, they're not rational. For many years my fear kept me from seriously considering childbirth. When … [Read more...]